I missed you.....

it's been months now... but still i don know how to say.. i cant feel anything.... but still i cared for you...i couldnt post everything cause we are friends... i just don know lar..i felt happy caused at least we can talk like normal.. but... we cant talk the way we used to be.. you join them alot.. im not jealous..or mayb i am... mayb i'm just hurt cause we used to play all the time,fight all the time.teasing each other...but now.. we are like... strangers.... no matter what i do now.. i think before i do....cause i really really scared it will be repeated once more... i'm afraid tht other ppl will be hurt like you did.... but now.. i see you... you seems like you move on.. i'm glad of course... but sometimes when i read those post.. i wonder are you scolding me? are you saying me?? mayb i just think too much or just bps... but seriously i really do think tht.. sometimes i couldnt chat with you cause i feel like im bringing you pain......i don dare to go near anyone..... haiz... i'm just sorry... i'm just a simple minded which acts so stupidly and regret with my own acts at last... i'm sorry..... you don know how much i wanna tell you this...... you will nvr know how pain it was....... the scar will always be there..... and thanks for letting me understand all this...if it's not you.... i wouldnt know wat is this......